No wonder I have nightmares... revision notes stalk me in my sleep!
In spite of those nightmares, the revisions are going well. I think this is the case for two reasons: 1) I love this book (even though it scares me) and 2) I only write for as long as it is fun to write. Then I pack up and get on with my day. After all, if it isn't fun, what the hell am I doing this for? Money? Acclaim? LOL
In my kid - teen years, I loved writing because it was fun. The most fun thing ever, actually. My list of fun went like this:
10) Singing along to The Beatles and Radiohead in my room
9) Painting murals
6) Playing tennis
5) Reading Anne Rice and Maeve Binchy novels
4) Making movies
3) Watching TV and movies
2) Playing volleyball
As I get older, I sometimes find myself slipping into a sour mood due to the financial realities and the small heartbreaks of the fiction-writing life. But it's a privilege to have the time, health and passion to write novels, and I'm trying not to take that for granted any more. I think sticking to my "only if it's fun" rule will help me stay in love with writing fiction despite the challenges that come with it. Because really, in the grand scheme of things, these challenges aren't so challenging. And there is so much more to life away from the laptop.
Writing is what I do in my free time and my (paying) career, so it's been easy to fall into the "I am a writer" identity trap. But exploring other facets of myself is, of course, important, and I plan on doing more of that once this novel is done. But until that day comes, I'll be mindful of enjoying the time I have with this manuscript.